start over again

so far, I have no idea I still keep this blog, it is more like a diary book, but it is for public.

reading about those old days, nothing but a little sadness and emptiness.

My life has changed a lot, but it is still. memory is a strange thing for a man, it seems to be very clear, however with the time goes, it will become blur and faded.

studying

nowadays, the only thing filled in my life is studying, I have no time for anything else.

haven't kept the english blog for such a long time. now, everything is ok, but I just feel a little boring, I don't know where it is from, Just like the feeling before ielts exam.

this is a place just for studying, not for traveling or joys.

maybe a little dark, a little sad, a little upset. but everything is still ok now.

i have bought a bike, but it is second handed, maybe i can fix it tomorrow.

later i will upload some photos.

UQ

uq means university of queensland. enrol dates has passed, I am late for enrol, but I will catch up the first time when I arrive.

What I am talking about? Sort of ridiculous.

22th of July, it will be a big day for me. The first step I stride out.

20 days left

There are only 20 days left for me to prepare. I am going to leave this country where I stayed 22 years. How do I feel? I feel worried, anxious, confused.

Is it the right way for me? Nearly all my classmates chose to find a job or study in domestic university. Also, many of my relatives asked me not to go out of country, because there are no friends, no relatives, and no one could take care of me.

I have already got the graduate certificate and diploma, the only thing I have to do is waiting, waiting for Visa and flight.

Actually, I am not ready to face such lots of new things, everything there will be not as usual.

Give me power, god.

Final presentation

I have finished my final presentation. Basically, it is not hard as I thought before.

My topic is A study of government procurement performance auditing.

And now, the only thing left is waiting for bachelor certificate which is the only meaning of my 4 years study in university.

As a matter of fact, it is not a short period for me to study in university. But I think It is to fast to me. I can not look back in my university career, or I wanna cry, feeling sad.

We all have to look in the future, not fall back to past. Time is running, can not be back again.

There are still many challenges in my life.

I will miss the room mate in our dormitory.

Dormitory

Come back to university, feeling everything here is not comfortable except freedom.

It is a place which is less than 10 m², but filled of 8 boys. We stay here this way for 4 years, just like a family.

It is hot in summer time, but full of joy. Although I can not get along well with all of them, but basically, I like this place.

The last months in university, I cherish it.

Don’t worry, tomorrow is a new start.

Sometimes, it is hard to describe the feeling clearly by words, but I still wanna write it all down to myself.

p.s.
Have listened Avril’s new record, it is no better than her old ones, but still not bad. I like it because I like her.

My CD-Rom is broken, I bought this computer only 2 years ago, the quality is not so good as I thought before about IBM.

Hot weather, lots of mosquitoes are flying around.

shanghai & hangzhou

I don’t feel like shanghai

Shanghai is a place which kills money easily; the city is in the name of luxury.

I stayed there for 4 days, visited some relatives. However, I also don’t like people in shanghai, I thought they care of nothing, except money. In such city, they can survive only if they earned enough money.

I have met a friend who is working in a 5-star hotel; she told me the most luxury standard room will take 70,000 Yuan one night. It is really hard to believe. Moreover buying one normal house costs 20,000 Yuan each square meter. Without dozen of money, people can almost do nothing there.

In comparison to Shanghai, Hang Zhou is much better. It is a peaceful quite clean city to live. Even walking alone beside the West Lake, is such a pleasure thing. People there are very friendly. I envy them, coz they live in such great place.

It is the international working festival. My family went several city to have this great trip with me. Perhaps, it is the last time we travel together when I am in motherland. Somehow it is an unforgettable memory.

What a damn hot day it is!

What a damn hot day it is.

It is only April. The spring just started, but the temperature jump up to 31 °C, crazy climate.

And now, everyone must be aware of what we have done to the nature world, too much CO2 has been made by human. We have to change the climate back, or probably, we will vanish in future.
Oh, help mankind, god.

Virus

Some virus infected my computer two times this whole week. Actually, it drives me crazy now.

I have tried several methods to get rid of it, but failed. At last, I only had to reload my windows. For the second, no less than two days, computer got attacked again by another kind of virus; fortunately, I tried another anti-virus software, and succeeded. But, the bad thing is it gets slower than ever before, the software takes lots of RAM.

Besides, I lost lots of data with the help by the damn virus.

Today is my birthday

I am 22 years old now. Just feel a little strange, because it is the year legally allowed marriage, but I am still thinking I have not mentally old enough.

Meanwhile, my friend’s grandfather passed away several minutes ago, it is too quick to her, and I can not stand the truth, neither.

THE WORLD IS ROUND... someone is celebrating his or her birthday at the same time when someone is crying for the deaths...

How did I spend my birthday years ago? I went to sing Karaoke in KTV, watched midnight movie in cinema, or contribute my blood for no charge. Which is really meaningful? Maybe they are too common for one person, but they are important to me. Just like tree rings, I can see them clearly in my memory, and will never be forgotten.

I am 22 years now, maybe it is the age for some to dive into society, but I choose to study for 2 more years instead. I wanna stand in a new high start line.
Good luck to me, happy birthday to me.

shocking movie

I have seen an shocking movie called an inconvenient truth. Actually, it is not only a opera, it is a perfect speech, it tells us the truth of environment problems we have not only to face but we must deal with immediately- the CO2 problems in the name of global warming disaster.

Maybe after no more than 50 years, we will lose everything we have got and to be homeless. The warning temperature will merit the ice in north polar, then the light from sun will directly shine on the ocean, after that, we can no longer stop the speed of warning. After the meriting of Antarctic, majority of land will lay underwater.

Al Gore made this speech this more than 1,000 times, but still, the US government haven’t paid any attention on this issue. Moreover, because of rescuing environments point, he failed the competition to be the president with J. W. Bush.

In spite of politic things, we still have to face our future to be a human in the earth; we have to cherish our world for no reason. If we fail this battle, maybe when we get old, the next generation will ask as for one clean earth, coz they cannot survive anymore.

What shall we do? Just try our best to save energy, use cleaner energy, buy saving-petrol automobiles, and produce recycled things. We should do everything we can to reduce jetting of CO2, only for our future, for next generation. It is our duty RIGHT NOW.

View the site: http://www.climatecrisis.net

my birthday is coming

maybe it is a lonely birthday, i don't wanna tell my friends if they can not remember, i just wanna spend the beautiful time alone to think about all my life.

it is too close to my long-distance-trip, i will leave my home for 2 years or longer. the loser it comes, the faster the time runs away. i just cannot control my feeling. no wondering, no longing, no surprising for future.

i must lose something, just like trade. if i get something, i have to pay something. just like a saying in a cartoon named "fullmetal alchimist".

some easier topic--
i had lunch with my parents in Jinling hotel which is the most luxury restaurant in our city, the food is not so delicious as i thought.

i bought myself a Casio Watch as my birthday gift for myself.

my college friend called me to eat caferteria hotpot several days ago.

one of my good friends in university took some art photos, i have seen, pretty good! a little like coco lee who is a famous singer.

and i quit Huaxia Bank, i will miss those staffs there. i will miss those days working so hard for my teacher in bank. good old days.

moreover, my father bought me a bunch chocolate today what is the best gift for me, i will keep in enjoying for such a long time.

thanks god, i have a good father and lots of friends altogether with me.

i watched a good movie called PERFUME. since then i am interested in perfume. i am not a gifted person, but not all gifted person has a perfect life. so let it be.

LOST

Everyone has to face the problem how to survive, to help other to live longer or to live instead of others’.
I like this TV programme, when a group of people land on a strange island, they must find their way to survive.
It is just like the modern world, we have to face thousands of problems everyday, we live with the help from others, and we also live to deprive others’ rights. How can we do then?
I am searching for a better way.

my work partner

my work partner is a pretty girl, she is going to graduate from one university in Macao. in Huaxia bank, we did everything together, sometimes, she is the only person who talks with me. what's more? i like laughing at her for everything.
maybe she is a little foolish. oh, if she is looking at my words, don't be worry. the more foolish you are, the more lovely you are.
now, she is going back to her university, and i am preparing my studying in Australia, maybe we have no chance to meet again this life, maybe we will lost connection in future, maybe... who knows, everyday, we have to face many many people, some of them will be our friends, but what does FRIEND exact mean? i am confused.

i don't like to see some people leaving, it is the hardest time in life. now, i can see the future, when i am leaving huaxia bank, leaving my motherland. i just wanna leave quitely. so no one will notice my disappearance.

bad feeling

working in Huaxia Bank

Huaxia bank is one of commercial banks in China, I have passed the examination and interview, and finally got a chance to work here.
Working in bank is not an easy job as I thought, it is very busy everyday, even in festivals, there will also be too much work to do.
Now, I am working in accounting department, each day, we have to meet many people from hundreds of companies. We have to do the exact thing for them, without any mistake.
It is my first time to work, leaving my university to search knowledge, but after several days, I have to leave there for my abroad studying.
I will miss the staffs in Huaxia bank, they are friendly to me, and teach me a lot.
All in all, it is an unforgettable experience in my life, our boss tried to persuade me to stay, but I have my goal. Although, I am not sure it will be good to me, but I have never lost my way, it is my destiny, maybe.
Good luck to me, good luck to Huaxia bank, good luck to everybody.

I have fell in love with Mahler Symphony.

happy spring festival& keep on practising english

tomorrow is chinese traditional spring festival, it is the most important festival in china. and tomorrow is another lunar year as well. I wish i could get better in next lucky year, i wish to find my way of life.
now, it is time to watch fireworks, wish everyone in the world: happy new year, happy spring festival!

After half a year…

I am leaving this place I was born, I am going to a totally new place to live and study. Actually, I have never left my house before, it may sound like only a piece of cake to someone, but I must be a big deal to me!
I am confused recently, I totally got lost again as the feeling before IELTS examination. Where I am going, If I have a chance to earn the money back to my parents who paid a large amount of money for me to go abroad.
Now, it is only half a year for me to get ready, perhaps, is it a right way for me to go?
I am leaving, I am dreaming, I am sitting with a lot of thoughts without any saying.

I wanna go to Brisbane!

Yesterday, I have made a decision to go to University of Queen's land, not only because of its beautiful landscape but also it has high educational quality.

I have seen some photos of this city, some people also said he or she wanna live there in spite of poverty, hunger or something not lucky, because it is the heaven to human.

I will study Accounting there, and if I have more time, I will choose Hotel Management.

This is an entire new way to me, I don't know if it is right to me, but I will stably walk along forever!