After half a year…

I am leaving this place I was born, I am going to a totally new place to live and study. Actually, I have never left my house before, it may sound like only a piece of cake to someone, but I must be a big deal to me!
I am confused recently, I totally got lost again as the feeling before IELTS examination. Where I am going, If I have a chance to earn the money back to my parents who paid a large amount of money for me to go abroad.
Now, it is only half a year for me to get ready, perhaps, is it a right way for me to go?
I am leaving, I am dreaming, I am sitting with a lot of thoughts without any saying.